He has been through SO much throughout the years medically. I cant help but be relieved that he isn't in pain anymore and that he is happily looking down on us with my Nana. He will be missed more than words can express though. Its hard to believe that he wont put his hand on my face and say "hello beautiful" in his deep voice when greeting me anymore. Or I wont hear his laugh or get one of those warm and comforting hugs he was so great at. Im not sure its fully hit me. Its hard to stop and realized the magnitude of it all while taking care of a 3.5 month old 24/7. When she goes to sleep or is with her Daddy and I get to focus on other things it starts to hit me. I keep telling myself that he is in a better place though and although Im not sure what I believe in religiously, I truely believe he is with my Nana and looking down on us.
I'm also so glad he was able to meet and christen Makenna a few weeks ago. Not only was it special to me and something I will never forget, it gave my family the chance to go up and see him. With our family living in many states, its hard to say if we all would have made it up there to spend time with him one last time.
I'm sure Pop isnt in Heaven blogging and wont read this but if I could I would tell him how he has always been and will always continue to be a big part in my life. He will never be fogotten and will always be missed and loved.
Rest in Peace, Pop
Jess, that was a very nice eulogy. i'm so sorry for your loss. When mom called & told me, the first thing i said was it was so awesome that he got to christen makenna. your pop was a good man, and i liked him too. it will get easier, and maybe it's a good thing that you're pretty occupied with makenna. know that we're thinking of you.
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awww, I'm so sorry for your loss, Jess. I think it's great that you will have so many wonderful memories to remember him by. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm very sorry for your loss, Jess. My prayers are with your family.
ReplyDeleteDear Jess,
ReplyDeleteThis is so beautiful. You were always very special to Pop- his first granddaughter. He got to christen your precious baby and he was so thrilled about that.
You have wonderful memories of Pop and that will stay with you forever in your heart. Just remember... he and Nana will be with you in everything you do...they will be at every birthday and event for your children in the years to come.
God Bless You during this difficult time and always.
Love,
Aunt Christine
Thank you for being so considerate of Pop and choosing to have Makenna's christening in CT. You had no idea when you chose to do that, that he would be as sick as he was. I don't need to tell you how happy he was that he could do that a week before he died. He loved seeing the family and it meant the world to him to have you all at his house seeing his new kitchen and baptizing his newest great granddaughter. It all happened because of your thoughtful decision making and thinking of him first and foremost.
ReplyDeleteI love you.
Aunt Christine